Without them, I would not be the most current version of ME. My children are reflections of me at my best when they are fun-loving, free-spirted, affectionate, and kind. These are strengths of mine that I greatly appreciate. But they are also reflections of me at my worst when a temper flares, a foul mood persists, or aggravated impatience is exhibited. These are weakness of mine that I must accept and improve upon. Their behavior teaches me about my behavior, and together we work to better ourselves.
This morning was a bad morning. I had a Mommy-Meltdown. I lost my cool. I used inappropriate language. I set a horrible example. This will all have to be undone, if that's even possible.
I will start with an apology for my behavior. I will not offer excuses. They already know how they contributed to the problem. Believe me, I made that very clear. Ugh.
I will look them in the eye and admit that I am not perfect. I will tell them that I lost control of my emotions. I will make a commitment to correct my behavior in the future. And I will mean it.
I will demonstrate what an apology should look like. I will demonstrate what an apology should sound like. Most importantly, I will demonstrate what an apology should feel like.
Hopefully we will all grow from our shared experience. Because I am me. And they are me. We must work together to create the four best versions of ourselves possible.